My one true self and also Dance parties

Hello!

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving long weekend. I always find that the “short” weeks after a holiday feel so much longer.

I am struggling this week with my true self. I am a procrastinator to my very core. Being this and also a teacher makes me feel like an imposter. I always leave my marking to the last minute, and dread it the whole time. All the while, I tell my students that they need to plan their work ahead, and make good use of their time. Today, I gritted my teeth and marked some assignments that I was dreading. It felt so much better to just do it.

Jack is learning all sorts of new tricks- but his old tricks are our favourite. Jack has epic dance parties. He learns dance moves every day. When we watch the wiggles- it is a full experience. He knows the moves, the songs and his timing is excellent.

I am amazed at how quickly he learns the new moves- it feels like he only just started paying attention to them!

I have been trying my best to capture these moments every chance I get- these are the stories that we will tell his future wife about 😂

2 thoughts on “My one true self and also Dance parties”

Ellen, so many women have bouts of imposter syndrome, both at home and at work. Men too, but the evidence indicates that women experience it at high rates. So, you’re not alone. I fight it and I bet many of your colleagues, new and experienced, do too. I spoke on this once, to a room full of women who are leaders in my field. Soooo many of them came up to tell me they see themselves struggling with it.

You were hired because you are good at what you do. Full stop. And, you have conflicting priorities which means the marking will pile up sometimes and you’ll fit it in when the time is available. But, you’ll get it done when you can. This is the very planning and prioritizing you’re encouraging your students to do. You’re probably juggling your To Do list internally, not on paper. That doesn’t mean you aren’t planning.

So, Mama, give yourself credit. Jack is thriving. Your students are learning. Your house is standing and your family is fed. You are nailing it, even if an annoying little voice in your head makes you doubt yourself.

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